It has been a couple of weeks since I lasted posted on my blog, unfortunately my mind has been clogged up with negative energy which has often left me drained. On my profile I mentioned that I am juggling my writing with being a working mother, that is not even the half of it. For the last four years I have also had an ongoing legal battle with my ex husband. The best way to describe it is kind of the cancer in my life. There will be quiet periods where I will not hear from him then when I do it is a violent attack of negativity.Not only do I often loose the will to live, my creative impulses get eaten away. The life gets sucked out of me.
This week I have managed to somehow perk myself up and get back in the driving seat. However I am constantly switching gears. While attending to my daughter's often Diva like demands I am also slotting in time to read over court statements and having solicitors appointments. Of course the love of my life, writing cannot and will not be neglected. This week I have also been preparing for my first stint as this months Writers Group Chairperson. A challenge I have never undertaken but was totally up for. During the week while I was picking up the debris for the mistake I made, my marriage. I had several moments of self doubt and wondered if I was just out of my depth.
Yesterday everything came together for me somehow. As I dropped my daughter off at her child minders, she was also in a very calm mood. She gave me the biggest hug and kiss ever as I left her to make my way to the Writers Group. Just the boast I needed.
I really enjoyed chairing it was a brilliant learning curve for me. The adrenaline rush continued in the evening when I got home, so I started putting this post together.
During these manic overloads I often forget the positives in life. After the week I had dealing with the legal case thank god I had chairing the Writers Group ahead of me. It really kept me sane, a true love in my life that has often given me back my zest for life.